Isolation… for me is no stranger, its not hard. Social Distancing for me is a pleasure and I prefer to keep my distance. Freetime during the week is my way of life, I take that for granted. Not knowing where my next wage is coming from has become my norm. Not seeing my family is an established tradition… so nothing much has changed for me.
Signing on the dole is hard for me.
Not being able to pay my bills, my insurance, my mortgage, my costs of living… this I struggle with. Sitting in my studio, producing artwork which I know will not pay my bills, just for Facebook popularity, this seems pointless to me. The feeling of helplessness as I watch 29 years of hard work disappear, this I struggle with. These are the unspoken internal daily struggles of being a self employed creative in these testing times.
Complaining about boredom is not an option, when my brain is packed full of ideas for survival, creative ideas and shots across the bough of unemployment. A bored brain has given up on hope and accepted defeat. I won’t do that. I have to believe that my talents will pull me through or else I could not go on.
Having my health has become a bonus and I am thankful for that. I feel a bond with all those who have survived this virus and live to forge a new future, while others squander their health with selfish gestures and deeds. I feel proud to have a healthy body and a busy brain and wish the same upon others.
We each exist within our own reality – this is mine. Have a healthy, productive day folks and believe things will change, as they must.
Carix Eye View 